OOOPS!! I almost forgot my post again. I have been so scatterbrained lately!!!
All I seem to be thinking about right now is how much change is coming in my life. Alot of it is very scary to me. I don't like the idea of pretty much starting over... and that's what it feels like I am doing.
As I wrote about last week, I need to make some career changes. What I am doing right now just isn't working. I need to focus on different ideas.
I will be moving soon. Don't know where or when but it will be soon. This house is way too big for us. It is too expensive... I can't do it anymore. I would like to move somewhere far away and really get a fresh start. There is a lot of hurddles to overcome for that to happen.
I even have to turn in my vehicle soon. The lease is up in less than 2 months! I like my ride and have no clue what I am gonna get to replace it. Things aren't so easy now in that department.
So here I am freaking out!! I just keep telling myself that change can be a great thing. Surely I will come out of all of it stronger, right?
What kind of change is going on in your life? What changes are needed?
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Hi Brandy
I know all about change. I am about to lose my job of 8 years do to the store going out of bussiness. My last day is Friday. I did find a temporary job that lasts for 1 week. i get to help remodel a store. We have two of these stores in town> Both managers want to hire me permantly if possible. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I am also thinking of going to school to be an herbalist.
You can get some schooling for free right now. Check into that. PT cruisers are great cars though they are a little on the small size. Let me know where you are moving, I might follow.
BJ
I am sorry about your job. I've been through that and it's definately not fun. I bet those managers will keep you. You are a great worker! I have my fingers crossed for you.
Going to school sounds like a cool idea. I will be in your cheering section whichever way you decide to go!!
Maybe we should just move off to some island. Live in huts on the beach, home school the kids, and live off fresh seafood!
Sounds like fun to me. When are we leaving?
I live just a few minutes from the beach but I wouldn't recommend moving here :)
It seems change is going on for a lot of people. I'm doing that in my writing, and I see other changes coming. Not sure they'll happen, but they're hovering out there.
I believe change can be good. I've done it more than once with my writing for one reason or another.
And even a bit in my personal life.
But there's days I feel like Danny Glover in Lethal Weapon "I'm too old for this %&*$%"
I always look at life like a series of stages. For instance, think back to a year or five years ago. You might've had different problems that seemed horrendous at the time, but now seem trivial.
Last year, I was worried about a couple of big changes. Now I can look back and take comfort in knowing that I didn't just throw up my hands and quit. I plodded ahead, sometimes groveling on my knees, but at least I survived. And you can too, Hon!
The changes you're experiencing now could end up being some of the best in your life, because they may lead to better things!
Okay, I guess I'm sounding like a self-help book or something, but really do mean it!
Hugs, sweetie.
I think the biggest change that's been going on in my life is something that's been a long time coming and has happened gradually up until a few years ago.
I always knew that because of the birth defect I was born with that assorted parts of my body would eventually wear out and I would face more physical problems and pain, but through my teens, 20's and 30's I really didn't feel like that was happening. Somewhere along the way I hit a brick wall and each year I can notice the downward spiral that my body is going through. Each day is an adventure not knowing what is going to hurt and how much, or what I'll be able to accomplish before I have to stop.
I know everyone goes through things like this as they age, and I'm not asking for sympathy. I recently found out that people born with my birth defect are physically about 12 years older than a "normal" person and can expect to acquire the normal maladies (arthritis, etc) about 12 years sooner than normal.
What does all this mean for me? I don't know really. My generation is the first one with this particular birth defect to live this long, so medical science has no idea what I should expect. Instead of looking to the future with trepidation, I try to look back at all the good years I had (Thank you Brenda and Barb) and be thankful. I could be a lot worse off than I am.
Thanks for the support Tori and Allison. I hope I don't sound like I am whining. Because believe me, I know there are so many others that have very worse problems. I'm just a little overwhelmed right now. I know things will get better though.
Chris,
I admire you for the way you have handled your health problems. You are very strong.
12 years older?!? Ooh... that would make me 44! Yuck :)
Which would make you one year older than I am now! lol
Hey Brandy,
It's like playing a never ending game of dodge ball, isn't it?
For a car...may I suggest a Mini Cooper? I really want one of those, though I don't think either of our families would fit into one.
Change for me? Personal things I need to work on and work out. Nothing major, just being stronger, mentally and physically.
See you soon, love bug! Mimosas are on the way.
SIS Barb aka Elle J Rossi
Brandy,
You said to Chris, "12 years older?!?Ooh... that would make me 44! Yuck :)" !
Watch it! I'm 44 and although old and aching, I don't mind it too much! It's better than the alternative.
Life is full of challenges, some fun to conquer and others a royal pain in the ass. There have been times that Jerry has said "Someday we'll look back on this and laugh". But some things were such a struggle and so stressful and painful that I was sure I could never laugh about it.
We recently were able to remove a situation from our lives that caused a tremendous amount of stress, even though it meant adding stress in other parts of our lives. But, to my amazement, We are now laughing at that situation which I thought I would never find humorous. Not that it's funny, but it's a relief that it's over.
I hope that this change will bring you happiness and a wonderful new chapter in your life.
Love and kisses,
SIS Bren
Brandy,
Nietzsche says: That which does not kill you can only make you stronger.
Sia's rendition of that is: That which does not kill you….will only requires a brief stay on the phych ward.
Or sitting by a lake going fiddle dee dee, tomorrow's another day.
My life seems fairly stable at the moment. Writing up a storm, preparing for RT, hmmm, when I start making a list of what comes after that, maybe I spoke too soon.
Hang in there and don't forget to take a deep breath and enjoy a Spring day. (((Hugs)))
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